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Hmm.....

I should be folding laundry, but instead....

I have 223 posts on my blog.  I have only published 92 to the public.

I was wasting time re-reading some of my old unpublished posts.  Re-reading stuff like that is like looking in the mirror while your drunk.  You feel kinda silly and all you can do is chuckle.

I discovered a few things:

*My blogs are very boring.
*Blogging is seriously self-centered.  Why do I think anyone actually cares to read about every detail of my life (or the details I actually share)? Who really sits around and thinks about themselves and writes about themselves everyday.  Well me, obviously.  But...eww.  I'm not sure I like the way that sounds.
*Some of my stuff really makes no sense.
*The most interesting and personal things I write, I don't actually post.
*I clean house...a lot.  And blog about it....a lot.
*I have conversations with people who may or may not be reading.... (Does that make me schizophrenic or narcissistic or something?)
*I use a lot of (..................................) in my writing and I am not sure why. Dramatic pause perhaps?
*I need to get a hobby....

But I will continue to blog anyway.  Why? Because I really enjoy riding writing (did I seriously write riding instead of writing, apparently I need to work on my grammar/spelling/ overall competency). That is another thing I noticed.  The number of errors I have been making in my writing. It is such an amazing outlet for myself.  I could write, just for myself.  But that is boring to me.  I like the idea that people actually read what I write (seriously, does that mean I'm narcissistic or what?)

So with these discoveries...I decided to do something about them.  Try to make my blog...less boring.  Actually post what I write.  Not only post about myself and my seriously pathetically boring days (not so much to me, because I happen to enjoy the whole parenting/ homemaker gig; but I am sure no one cares to read about how often I fold laundry.)  And to find a hobby.  Or read a book.  Or something.....

That's all....

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