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40 Days...

My plan is to keep this brief, but we shall see how that goes.

Last year (and again this year), a fellow blogger took  time from the media world to focus on her walk with Christ.  I thought that was absolutely admirable.  I envied her strength and self-control.

I first need to say that I am not Catholic.  I have many friends that I absolutely love and respect who are Catholic.  The only reason why I am saying this, is because even though I am not Catholic, I have decided to participate in Lent (in the sense that I will be 'fasting' for the next 40 days...).  And the reason why I mention that I am not Catholic is because I don't want to misrepresent myself or have my ignorance toward Catholicism reflect poorly.  I am a Christian.  I believe in God.  I believe in God's wrath.  I believe in God's love.  I believe that Jesus is God born in the flesh who died for our sins.  And I believe that I am saved because of his sacrifice.  I go to church.  I love my church.  And I know in my heart that I am a sinner and really really need to work on my walk with Christ.  But please know, I hold only respect for the Catholic church.  I really do not wish to offend anyone by participating as a non-Catholic Christian.

My somewhat narrowed minded understanding of Lent is the following:

Starting Ash Wednesday (today) until Easter Sunday, is a time for fasting.  First of a luxury/comfort/ or food of choice, and also meat (which I believe is only on Fridays).

Truthfully, that is about all I understand about Lent.  But after reading a fellow bloggers experience last year, and after prayer and a lot of thought today, I have decided to participate as well. So after this post, I will not be posting until after Easter.  In fact my plan is to stay off bloggers completely.  Not only will I not be posting, I will not be reading.  In addition to blogger, I intend to fast from Pinterest, Twitter, and 20sB.  I will be choosing to listen to more KLOVE and other God glorifying music and less of the other stuff.  I will be taking the Facebook app off my phone and only checking Facebook a limited number of times per week.  The reason I am not shutting down Facebook is because that is how a group of us ladies plan different church gatherings and such (nursery scheduling, Bible studies, girls night out etc.), so I intend on using Facebook for that purpose alone.

So many times I have thought to myself, what if I opened the Bible every time I went to check my Facebook or my Twitter or my blog, or my whatever else I have got myself wrapped up into....I want to put this idea to the test and see how it can transform my life.

I REALLY need to do this, and I really need to start focusing on my walk with God.

I'm thankful my sins are forgiven, because let's face it--if God was keeping score, I would be loosing right now.  But just because I am saved, doesn't mean I have a free pass to live my life however I please and call myself a Christian.  It is time that I start focusing on God and his Word and start living the life he wanted for me.

So this is goodbye for now.  This is not going to be easy for me so I ask that you pray for my journey.  Pray that I have strength to see this through.  I have been prayerfully considering this all day, and I feel in my heart that this is something I have been called to do.  So as my husband, parents, grandparents, and other close family and friends read this.  I am going to challenge you to hold me accountable to this.

By the end of this, I pray that my life will better be aligned with God's plan.  I pray that this fast brings me humility, strength, and a fresh perspective.  I pray that this fast will bring me closer to my husband and my family.  I want to be even more engaged in my daughter's life without distractions.  I need to prioritize me life, and begin living a God honoring life instead of a Breanna honoring life.

I'm excited and anxious for this journey....so let it begin......

Thank you.  And God Bless.

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