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Why. Am. I. Awake??? Ughhhhhhhh.

I woke up with such a rush of emotions.  Emotions are driven by thoughts, so I wonder what my brain was doing while I was sleeping. At least I haven't been having crazy dreams like I did in the past.  I wonder if that means my preggo and post preggo hormones are returning to "normal". 

I have so much I could say, but won't.  I'm exhausted.  I'm exhausted of thinking about all this stuff that I don't even want to write it. 

So ill focus on crap that's unrelated.  Like my birthday. Avoidance.

Two weeks from today, I will be 23.  I'm not sure why I am a huge fan of my own birthday, but I am.  I wonder if that makes me a bit narcissistic.  I have zero plans to do anything grand.  Probably just visit family and such. But I keep having my eye on that week hoping that, by then, life will calm down. 

Last night I went to a funeral as a member of Ians family passed.  That's always a bummer.  At that point in the day I was done.  I had all I could take in one day.  But it was nice to catch up with a few of his family members that I knew.  I don't think I had ever not bern introduced to so many people at an event before.

Don't mind me standing here.  I'm just the woman with the baby.

I give Ian crap about it, but I understand. It was crazy and he was meeting people left and right that he didn't even know or hadn't seen in years.  I don't know, maybe I'm too embarrassing to introduce to his family.  Haley was also being difficult.  She is not a fan of the late evenings and decided she was fuss about it which led to a prompt exit. 

Today.  Ugh let's not even talk about today.  It's my blog, I do what I want.  But I'm hoping for a smooth day.

Well, I am pretty exhausted so I'm going to try to get another 30  minutes of sleep or so.  I think I need coffee.  But wait, the coffee cups and coffee pot are packed.  That's fun. 

Until next time. 

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