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I'm Bre....Hear Me Whine

I've been up since well before 8.  Not because my husbands up or because I am working today, but because I feel awful.  First off,, remember how I mentioned I was feeling a little sick yesterday...well now I feel worse.  I feel like I swallowed razer blades and every time I take a deep breath they stab my lungs--and if I cough....OUCH!  My bet is, the more I get up and around, go for a walk, and get some fluids, this whole "sickness" or whatever will be a lot more bearable.  It's probably not even a sickness, change of weather perhaps.  When mother nature decides to be bipolar it tends to send my respiratory system way out of whack.

On top of not feeling well, I was tossing and turning last night.  Between my bladder being used as a punching bag and just general insomnia...no sleepy time for me.  I know, I know...if I think it's bad now--wait until she gets here.  But can't I catch some extra sleep now in lieu of the sleep I'm going to miss out on later?  The only thing keeping me from having a major melt down in the middle of the night was the fact that every time I found myself wide awake, I could feel her little kicks.  I don't think she has ever been so active overnight before.  Probably a bad sign for later, but while I was awake, it gave me something to enjoy and think about.  So while I am pouting and cranky and crabby, the kicks put everything into perspective and I have to praise God for the opportunity I have.

Overall, I am just hoping I am on the downhill of this thing.  For some reason I decided to work three days in a row this week (starting tomorrow).  Which would be fine, but I am not really conditioned  to be up on my feet teaching like that, plus not feeling well.   I know it may not seem like it, but even when your not pregnant and not sick, teaching can be mentally and physically exhausting.  I've kept busy around the house and such, but let's face it, I've had a very relax and easy second trimester of hanging out at home.  I have a feeling that no matter what; I WILL be getting some good sleep this weekend!

Alright alright, I'm done complaining.  I figured I would get it ALL out of my system now so I can be pleasant to everyone I come in contact with today.  I think I'll be starting my day with a nice walk on the treadmill, play some fetch with my dog Winston, followed by a warm shower, and then a few bottles of water. (Better than any medication you can take).

Well I hope everyone has a fantastic Tuesday.  Besides not feeling well, I can't complain too much.  KU had another successful win last night.  It was a very solid performance, even without our point guard who did something naughty leading him to be suspended for whatever reason.  It would be great if we can keep all our players out of trouble and not injured, but I would also say it's a good sign when we are continually down decent players and still pulling out win after win.  The more I watch though, the bigger of a fan of the Morris brothers I become.  I think they are both very solid players and we will continue to see great things from them.  Then on the chick flick side of things:  another interesting Pretty Little Liars last night.  Disappointed that they never solved the 214 mystery, but that's pretty typical for the show.  I am not sure they have ever made any progress in figuring out who "A" is or who killed Allison.  I suppose we will just have to keep watching and see what happens.  Didn't get an opportunity to watch House last night, probably go ahead and add that to my tough to-do list for today.

Until next time....have a great day and thanks for 'listening' to me whine.

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