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Playing in the Dirt

    For most of my life, my only “hobby” has been sports and exercise. It’s a complicated love affair which is entangled with what feels like a constant struggle with needing to be faster, stronger, leaner, skinner. It’s a hobby that brings me equal parts joy and discontentment.

    This year I’ve started my first garden. A simple task of practicality has become a surprising joy and hobby. It feels like, art. There is nothing like watching something grow and flourish. The challenge of trial and error. Time spent outdoors. So many elements that have brought me an unexpected gift.

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