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Snap Outa It

I need to focus.

My brain is in a million different places all at one time.  And time is slipping away from me.

The other day, Haley looked at me.  Plain as day and asked while looking around the room

"Where Dad go?"

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I was stunned how clear she was.  It is weird.  She will go days just babbling or screaming at me, and then pop out a sentence just clear as day.

My point, my baby isn't a baby anymore.  She is a toddler.  It has its ups and downs, but I have to admit that sometimes I emotionally check out because I am overwhelmed with needing to do this, or thinking about that.  So this is my reminder to start reading to Haley daily again.  To sit down, look her in the eyes when I talk and play with her.  And soak every moment in because I can't ever get these moments back.

This is my reminder that Haley doesn't care if the floors are cleaned daily or if the counter tops have finger prints.  All Haley wants is her mother's love and attention, and she deserves more of it.  I promise I haven't been neglectful, but I have been...overly occupied with the hustle and bustle of needing to get things done that I really need to re-prioritize my life.

This evening we read the "Busy Little Spider",  I know she doesn't get the irony yet, but it sure entertained me.  And then I read her the first page in her children's Bible.  Meanwhile, I left my phone in the other room and let it go to voice mail.  I can always call a person back, but I can't re-do missed moments.  I can't get back this time.

I don't want Haley to wonder "Where Mom go?"--when we are in the same room.

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