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I will never forget my first date.

I felt so....grown up. A date. A real date. Just like I had seen on 7th Heaven and Boy Meets World. I was nervous for sure. Getting ready at my friend's house, being one of the "girls"... I even remember what I wore. It was a triple date. Applebees and a movie: Freddie vs. Jason.

Now when I look back on that day...my heart feels heavy. Not nostalgia for the past, my youth..or for my exboyfriend. But because two of those six teens on that date are no longer with us.

Mike passed away a few years ago in an accident on the highway. And then today, Mallory died in a car accident. At the time..they were the "it" couple. She was a volleyball teammate. Gorgous. Intimidating. Talented. Outgoing. He was athletic. Funny. Kind.

It's times like this that you step back from your life and see the bigger picture. How life can change in an instant. My heart goes out to their families and friends.

That news and a combination of other craziness had left me feeling like I need a break. A get away. Luckily Ian and I had planned a mini vacation to Branson and it is finally upon us...just in time. I am ready to get away and enjoy some r&r.

I'm not sure I have much else to update. Haley is doing well. Growing like crazy and changing daily. I discovered that one beer a day increases one's milk supply...so I now participate in that....you know for my kid.

Well that is all I have for you today....

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