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Waiting on the Other Shoe....

I know I stress too much.  But today, I seriously haven't felt Haley move all day.  I'm having one of those is-anyone-in-there-kind-of-days.  So I decided to pull out the handy-dandy Doppler radar to put my nerves at ease by hearing her heartbeat.  Usually I can find the heartbeat in seconds.  I went to the usual area where I can get the best reading....nothing....after a few minute of panicking, I started checking other areas of my now large belly.  Finally, I found her heartbeat but in a very different area of my belly.  Not at all in her usual position.  The heart beat was good (140 bpm).  Apparantly, she has maybe moved into a different position where she is comfy and not moving around as much.  I think the most important thing I need to do right now is to remember Philippians 4:6, "Don't worry about anything; instead pray about everything.  Tell God what you need, and thank him for all that he has done.  If you do this, you will experience God's peace, which is more wonderful than the human mind can understand.  his peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Jesus Christ." (NLT)

I'm suffering from the waiting-for-the-other-shoe-to-drop syndrome.  I almost expect something to go wrong at this point.  It is a horrible feeling and a bit of a personality flaw (Chicken little was never a very popular chicken.  No one likes to be around someone who constantly thinks the sky is falling).  I've known, at least since I've gotten pregnant, that I was struggling with this feeling.  It never seems to fail, every time I find myself constantly struggling with something, it is discussed in Church or my small church group.  And this continues to hold true with this particular issue.  Friday, Ian and I got together with our small church group.  We have been working through a book and using it to lead various discussions.  This week we focused on worry.  It couldn't have held more true for me.  The book outlines tons of great scripture, including the one I listed above, to read and pray on.  So that is just what I shall do.  I need to start trusting that everything is in God's hands. 

Speaking of my small church group, babies are on their way!  I've known for awhile, that one of my "church" friends is expecting.  She was due in June but now they are thinking she is going to be due around the same time as myself in May.  I am ecstatic to have a fellow mom in my life.  This is actually her second child, but it is still so nice to have someone to talk to about things. I'm looking forward to watching them play and grow together as fellow Christians in the church.  She is so strong and is waiting to learn the sex until the baby's arrival date.  I secretly think and hope it is a girl!  Then, to our surprise, another one of our girls in the small group announced that she too is pregnant!  So excited!! So three of us will have new babies this year! 

Surely my readers are not tired of reading about pregnancy yet??  Oh wait, you probably are.  Understandably.  I'm tired of writing about it.  Thinking about it.  Living it....however, I am in no big hurry to go into preterm labor.  No thank you.  She can stay as long as she needs to grow and be healthy in this world.  Don't worry though, it's looking like I only have about another 9 weeks to go...meanwhile, I'll try to mix things up.

Overall, nothing too crazy new/exciting to update on.  Ian took an extra day off this weekend and we enjoyed watching KU win the big 12 tournament with some family and friends.  We had such a great time catching up with everyone! 

The next couple weeks are shaping up to be busy ones.  I'm okay with that.  The busier, the quicker they go by.  The quicker they go by, the quicker Haley arrives.  This week we've got another doctors appointment. I'm asuming it won't be anything exciting.  Just a few measurements, checking of the heart rate. etc.etc.  I got spoiled by many ultrasounds early, so now when I go for checkups I get disappointed because we don't get to sneak a peak much anymore.  I suppose that is a good sign that he thinks everything is going well.  Then later in the week Ian and I start our first of five child prep classes at the hospital!  It should be entertaining....hopefully I'll be getting some good blog material soon....until next time. 
 

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