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The End of An Era

Tomorrow is the first day of a long journey. 

With Haley, I was always excited for the next big milestone. First smile. First time rolling over. First time crawling. First steps. First words.

In many ways, she has taught me more about life than I have taught her. And tomorrow, I hand her over to the world. I will still have a hand in her development--but her education and much of her social interaction is in the hands of her tiny little community. Tonight, when I bow my head, I will pray hard for the years to come. And that God will continue to look over her and guide the hands molding her mild.

As we close this chapter of our life, we begin another. This milestone, I approach with anxiety, hesitation, and tears. I am excited for her--she is going to LOVE kindergarten. Without a doubt, I know there will not be a tear shed on her part. She will walk through that door of her classroom, with not so much of a glance back. If anything, a reassuring smile to mom. To let me know--she's got this.

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